Side Note...God's provision

Let me take some time to explain why the long absence.  In June I got rather sick as I explained in the last two posts.  In August I began stuttering everyday.  I went to my neurologist and he put me on meds to stop the hemiplegic migraines I was getting causing the stuttering and neurological symptoms.  The meds did not help though and this continued.  On the 28th of September I went for an EEG which sent me into a seizure from the flashing lights.  I was sent home with tons of questions and no clue what had just happened.

Later that night I was laying in bed and I started having a seizure.  Andrew sent the boys to get my mom who was next door.  As I lay there not being able to control my body our two older boys looked at me and asked their dad if I was going to die.  After calling the doctor we got in the car and started to drive to a hospital.  But when another seizure came on Andrew brought me to the local fire station which took me down to Tucson to the hospital.  There they put me in the ICU while I seized continuously.  They put so many drugs into my system to stop them that I began hallucinating and really don't remember much of my time in the Tucson hospital.  After not being able to figure out what was causing the 25 seizures a day so Andrew asked that they transfer us up to Phoenix, to a specialty seizure hospital.

While in Phoenix I continued to have about 25 seizures daily they hooked my head up to so many machines and watched my every move from a video camera.  One night I had a 45 minute seizure and laid there feeling my moms hand on my arm as I continued to shake.  I could hear and feel everything during my seizures.  As I seized I cried out to the Lord in my Head, "Why!!  Please God just stop this!"  This went on for seven days random things set me off.  I laid in bed listening to my husband try to pull me out of the seizures with encouragement and pleading.  I was so out of it and the only answers from the Lord I was getting was from one song that was continuously stuck in my head during the seizures.  Only one verse was stuck in my head about thanking God and praising Him.  I can't remember the exact words or who sang the song right now but I know it was about thanking Him.  At the time I didn't see the meaning.

On the seventh day of this ordeal the seizures finally stopped and I was released with a questionable diagnose one that the doctors couldn't agree on.  But it was not epilepsy, thank you Jesus!  The moment my kids entered the room to the hotel we stayed at that night I knew what the song meant.  The Lord had spared my life and brought me back to my husband and children.  I praised Him as my husband and I drove home.

One hour away from our house we hit the mountains at that moment my head felt like it was going to explode and I started having a seizure.  After the seizure I looked at my husband and knew this was the answer.  The elevation changes that caused similar symptoms five years ago in New Mexico were to blame.  We had moved four years earlier because of similar symptoms and learned that elevation was to blame but I had completely forgotten.  When released from the hospital the doctors didn't really understand what was happening and I fought with the questions of what did happen and why.  I finally got to a point where I was ok with not finding all those answers out but God showed us the moment we hit a higher elevation.

Even though my head was going nuts I was in awe with how God just showed me what the trigger for the seizures was.  He is the Great Physician!  We spent a month in our house at over 4000 ft until we finally made our way down and finally moved to Phoenix.  Which has been a total miracle and I can now think clearer and continue on this process.  During the hospital stay Andrew and I discussed the possible complications this may have put on our adoption.  We got to a point where we just gave our daughter up to the Lord not knowing what life was going to be like afterwards.  Needless to say God showed us what was wrong and how to fix it.  I now have an altitude drug I take when changing altitude higher then 2000 ft.  And I have had no other seizures since that drive home.  Jesus has healed me and provided the answers we needed.  And He also showed us why we have not been to India yet.

God you are incredible!  

As we now wait for our day to meet sweet Hadassah Bharathi Moore; we have a new spring in our step.  We know God has it all in His hands and we know His timing is perfect no matter the trials.