India

First off still no date for India so continue to pray for things to get moving.  

As for fund raising we have had $535 raised already.  What a complete blessing, we are so thankful to those of you who have donated.  

Someone also referred me to a movie on Netflix about India.  The documentary is called Its a Girl.  It is about the gendercide that goes on in both India and in China.  It is a very common thing for women to kill there girl babies right after they are born by smothering them or having them drink bleach. How horrible!  Why!  It said that there is a high rate of deaths of girl babies (that is what they call them in India) by the time they are 5 years of age.  What is going to happen when all the girl babies are gone and all there is are men to populate thier countries.  

How can a mother devalue a life her body held for 9 months and God chose to give her.  I pray that The Lord has mercy on these women and men who in most cases give these women no other choice but to get rid of the girls.  

Oh how I long to hold our girl baby Hadassah.

Waiting....

One of the most difficult things for me is waiting.   I recently informed my husband that he can not tell me something until he knows for sure if he wants to do it.  Only because I have a very hard time waiting and not just jumping on it.  For instance we will be moving in the next six months because Andrew's project will be over and that means moving on to another project.  I am the planner type who months before figures out where we will live, what school our children will go to, and then I start packing.  Right now we have no clue where we will be moving, only that we are moving.

Ahhhhhh.....

And then when I think about Haddie and how we are simply waiting for a date to go pick her up.  Why can't I just call India and set it up through the court system.  I know I talked about patience in the last blog, but alas I am back in the spiral of not having it.

Bottom line nothing is certain and we do not know what will happen today let alone tomorrow.  But I will try to hold on to God's promise "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own" (Matthew 6-34).  And that He works all things out for those who love Him.

 Please remind me of this when I start to spiral again.

Anxious about what?

Still waiting for word from India about filing for a court date.  I have to stop myself from thinking about it too much because I get very anxious and stressed if I do think about it.  I have started collecting clothing for Haddie and I am fixing to purchase a car seat for her.   It seems so surreal when I ponder what it will be like to travel to India and see her for the first time.  Andrew and I just sit and imagine our reactions and hers.

What do you think she will be thinking?  Will she be scared?  Will we?  Will she just know us and bond right off the bat?  Will we get all the paperwork done while we are there?  All these thoughts and so many more are going through our minds.  Does she even know we are planning, loving, and hoping for her.  Did she get the picture book we sent of her family for her?
So many ifs and maybes and guesses...

What I do know for sure is that God tells us: "Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.  And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:6-7).

Please pray that India gets things rolling soon because we are fixing to move in July or August.  We want Haddie to be home before this.  God's will be done...