Prayer, please....

Well another Christmas has passed without Haddie...I'm to a point where I am at a loss as to what to say or write.

  Here is the most recent information we have after our rep took a trip to India to try to find out what is going on.

* The old judge wrote on our court papers that he denied to hear our case because we have four birth children.

* The Hyderabad split happened.

* Our case had to be switched to a new court and judge because of the split.

* 2 years later...C*** is under the impression that we pushed for the new judge because the old judge refused our case.

* Our rep is currently trying to help C*** and our new lawyer to understand that this was not our intent and that it was because of the split that we were sent to another court.  He is also trying to educate them that there is no objection in their own state laws about family size.

* So we are now waiting on one lawyer, a judge, and C*** to fight for us and our adoption of our daughter.

Right now the only person who can intervene is Jesus!  He has already moved a mountain and we need Him to move another one so that we can bring Haddie home.  So we are asking that during this next month that you take the time to fervently pray for our adoption and for God's will, not ours but His.

Please commit to praying for Haddie, the judge, the lawyer and the hearts of the decision makers.  Thank you...

"Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.  Commit your way to the Lord; and trust in Him and He will act.  He will bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday" (Psalm 37:4-6).

Blessings from above...a letter to my daughter

To my daughter Hadassah,

              Well we are now in October of 2015 and you are still in India.  You are probably wondering why these other mama's keep taking pictures of you but leave with your friends instead of you.  Well they have been a blessing to your dad and I because they send us pictures and updates on you.  As we watch you grow from afar we are blessed with these updates and little glimpses of hope that come with them.

  Haddie I want you to know how loved you are and have been throughout time.  Not only by your dad and I but also by our Lord.  He has moved so many mountains to get us where we are in our fight to get you home.  He is now molding our hearts together and getting us ready for eachother.  Please know that we think about you every day, pray for you constantly and do all we can to push to get our day in court so we can hold your little hand and bring you HOME.

     Not only are we working to get you home but there are so many other people who are helping us in our quest.  These people have given thier time, money and prayers to help get you home.  Can you believe that?  You are so loved by so many and you may not even know it yet.  Here are just a few faces of those who have helped in our journey...  love, your mama

Thank you to those helping us through this journey.

The result of praying for patience...

Can't remember who it was, but I once was told never to pray for patience; why well I am finding out now :-) .
     First let me thank all of you who purchased art from our auction we raised over a $1000!!!!  I hope you are enjoying the fruits of that auction and that you pray for Haddie every time you look at them.  Also we have wonderful friends who are hosting a jewelry fundraiser for us this coming weekend.  If you can't make it here is the website to purchase a nice little christmas present for and help us reach our goal for bringing Haddie home (http://www.noondaycollection.com/pws/HeatherKeehn/eventstore12085/AMUS/default.aspx).

Now back to patience...Well I did pray for patience for many years and now I continue to pray for more patience and am learning it.  We found out last week that we are now waiting on our second NOC to be issued which will then be followed by a court date.  So we now have done two dossiers, 4 different i800 renewals (with some moves in there), two NOC's and countless other random papers.

Where is God in all this mess?  He is everywhere!  Little did we know the last judge refused our adoption outright.  We just thought he didn't want to deal with our case, but no he refused to even rule on it.  So God literally moved mountains by splitting the state which in turn got us a new judge and a lawyer who will fight to get us our day in court.   God is so faithful!  He has even made it possible for us to get multiple pictures and updates through the wonderful families that visit the orphanage to pick up their girls.  So we have been able to see Haddie grow through others pictures and encounters with her.  We are truly grateful for this, but pray we can be the one's meeting and holding her next.  But God's will be done and in His time.

Please continue to pray for our adoption and please continue to pray for our preparing time as I call it.

Art for Sale, Art for Sale!

Ever wonder what true love is?  We are in the middle of finding it out.  We started this adoption in 2012!  In order to get to where we are today God has literally been moving mountains.  Since we started this process we have experienced three home-studies, three different purchases of India Visas (until we wised up and just bought the five year one), a split in the state of India, a prejudice judge whom because of the state split was removed from our case, two separate Dossiers, called and told we were ready to pick her up that prompted tickets, hotel reservations, and so much emotional turmoil after we were told it was a mistake, renewals on all our approvals at least three times, three years of fingerprinting, three different moves, health scares, and so much more.

Throughout it all as you can see God has had a hand in it all.  He moved the mountains that needed to be moved to get us a different court, judge and lawyer.  He has paused the whole process to all me to heal from this past year of bad health.  He has strengthened us when we feel like it will never happen by sending us glimpses of the future and our future holding her.  His love for us and for Haddie is amazing, outstanding and unrelenting.

So.... with all that said we are embarking on an new fundraising idea.  Please check out our facebook page AndrewandRachel Moore to see what art we have up for auction.  All are originals either taken by Andrew or I or drawn or painted by a family member.  We hope to raise the money we need before we get the call to go and get her.  We are wrapping up the finally pieces of the second dossier and hope to have it out in two weeks.  Please continue to pray as we try to finalize all this paperwork and not pull our hair out in the process :-)

Needing some encouragement...

So here is the latest news.  We do in fact have a new judge and actually a new court!  I can't express how grateful we are to our wonderful Lord for that piece being put together.

With the new court comes the fact that we will have to update most of our Dossier papers.  This means new referrals, medical letters, child letters, tax docs, ect...  I am still in a little shock from this discovery because it is overwhelming to think we have to piece together all that paperwork again!

The good news is once we update it all and send it to the lawyer we should get a court date.  Now I know this is good news but it is also a step back into the process which is frusterating but I am holding onto faith that God is knitting this into His perfect plan, not mine.

I just want to bring her home...And we will do whatever it takes to get closer to that point.

Please pray for patience for us and Haddie.  Also please pray for our fundraising.  We are trying to raise the money it will take to travel to pick her up.  

He is truly amazing...

The other day I got an email from a good friend who had adopted two girls from India.  Actually her family was our inspiration to adopt from India.  She told me that God put it on her heart to pray for Haddie as she was driving around town.  She started praying specifically that the red tape would be cut and that we would get a new judge and things would start to move so we could bring our daughter home.  This email was totally out of the blue but I was blessed by her words and the fact that she listened to God's calling.
The next day we recieved another email, this one was from our agency.  They had received an email from our in country rep who stated that he checked up on our case and it was closed after being rejected by the judge because we already have four children.  He then went on to write that because of the recent split in Hyderabad they are moving our case to a different court!  Which means a new judge and NEW HOPE!
Our wonderful, matchless Father has answered our prayers!  We now have a new judge!  As I sit here in awe of God's mercy and grace I am speechless.  We have seen the power of prayer and are so overwhelmed by His goodness.

Please continue to pray for Haddie and us as we get two steps closer to meeting and bringing her home.   Also please pray for the new judge and that their heart will be open to us and to allowing our little girl to come home.

One year later...

So it has been a year since we got the call to come and pick up our little Haddie.  We all know that was a mistake so we don't have her yet but this year has been very difficult.  Difficult not only because we are still minus one important piece to our family, but our life has changed a lot because of my health.  But we are more determined then ever to be able to go and get her.  Here is why:

• First off we love Haddie even though we haven't met her yet she is our daughter. 
• Second the only thing holding us back right now is the Indian court system.  All the other important paperwork is signed, done and ready for her to be home.  
• Third and most important God is bigger and better then any illness out there.  His Will will prevail in this situation.

We recently got a new picture of Haddie from a wonderful Hyderabad mama which showed Haddie blowing a kiss.  This little girl deserves all that God wants to give her.  Yes her mama will have to do things a little differently like laying down a lot, skipping things that involve the heat of the day, taking rests after a full morning of teaching her children; but Haddie will never lack in anything like love, attention, food, education, excitement and a mother that loves her.   

Here is the verse God has been putting on my heart and comforting me with through this season:

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.  And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus" (Philippians 4:6-7).

Our hope remains strong in someday soon holding our little girl.  And we will in God's time...

Please, Please, Please

We recently sent a heart filled letter to the director of CARA, the minister of Child welfare of India, and the Ripa.  Requesting that they hear our case and make some progress on our adoption.  The Monday following we heard back from CARA that they are looking into it.  We also found out that the Ripa heard from CARA and were being encouraged to speed things along.  That being said we have yet to hear anything after that.  But please pray they take this to heart and allow us to come and pick her up.

 We are ready and her bag is still packed.  I did have to go and give away some of the smaller clothing that I had packed in there for her last year and then go and get her some new ones.  Every time I do that I imagine putting those little clothes on her little body.  How I long to hold her little hand and enjoy this life God has given us.  We have already missed 6 years!  I pray we don't have to miss much more.

Please keep her in your prayers.  And if God leads you please donate to our Haddie fund.  We are going to have to purchase business class tickets in order to get there without to many health complications.

Happy Birthday baby girl!

So Haddie's birthday is coming up next month on the 19th.  This will be the third birthday we have missed.  As my heart breaks for her and for us I want to write this birthday wish to her so she can someday look at it an know she is so much loved and we are fighting to get to her as soon as possible.

Dear daughter,
    As I sit here thinking about your almost six years of life away from me, your mama, it breaks my heart.  I didn't get to see your first steps, hear your first words, hold you when you got your first boo boo, give you your first hair cut, hold you when you had a bad dream, and all the other milestones of life; and I will miss your sixth birthday.
    But know this baby girl you are my daughter and your daddy and I love you to no end.  We think of you constantly and pray that tomorrow will be the day we get the call to come and get you.  You are loved so much Haddie Bharathi Moore!  I can't wait to hold you when you cry, play with you, teach you, hear your first english words, see your smiling face every morning, see you play with your sister and brothers, see you grow in our God, and everything else that your future holds.
     I dream of you a lot.  In my dreams I am meeting you for the first time inside the orphanage.  I get to hold you and see your beautiful face.  These dreams feel so real and I get to touch your face.  God gives me these dreams when I am low on hope.  He gives me just a little glimpse of our future together.  I pray He too gives you these dreams.  Hold tight little one we are coming for you.  Allow Jesus to hold you as I can't right now.  And know we are waiting for you.

 Happy Birthday sweet girl.

Forever your mama,
me

Hyderabad has movement....

Hyderabad has had some movement with adoptions recently.  We know of three families that have court date final.  We are not one of them though.  Holt still has not heard from our lawyer or the Ripa after several attempts to get information.  They still say we need to hold onto hope though so we continue to pray and hope to someday meet little Haddie who will be 6 in April.  We are praying God's will will be done in this whole adventure.

Health update:

    So after another hospital stay at the Mayo Hospital they have figured out what is going on in my body.  I was diagnosed with POTS, which is an autonomic nervous system disorder.  The nonepileptic seizures were a result of not enough oxygen to my brain. Now that we know we can learn how to deal with it. Took many many years but we finally have an answer and ways to work through it.  Now I am ready to go to India God :-)