Side Note...God's provision

Let me take some time to explain why the long absence.  In June I got rather sick as I explained in the last two posts.  In August I began stuttering everyday.  I went to my neurologist and he put me on meds to stop the hemiplegic migraines I was getting causing the stuttering and neurological symptoms.  The meds did not help though and this continued.  On the 28th of September I went for an EEG which sent me into a seizure from the flashing lights.  I was sent home with tons of questions and no clue what had just happened.

Later that night I was laying in bed and I started having a seizure.  Andrew sent the boys to get my mom who was next door.  As I lay there not being able to control my body our two older boys looked at me and asked their dad if I was going to die.  After calling the doctor we got in the car and started to drive to a hospital.  But when another seizure came on Andrew brought me to the local fire station which took me down to Tucson to the hospital.  There they put me in the ICU while I seized continuously.  They put so many drugs into my system to stop them that I began hallucinating and really don't remember much of my time in the Tucson hospital.  After not being able to figure out what was causing the 25 seizures a day so Andrew asked that they transfer us up to Phoenix, to a specialty seizure hospital.

While in Phoenix I continued to have about 25 seizures daily they hooked my head up to so many machines and watched my every move from a video camera.  One night I had a 45 minute seizure and laid there feeling my moms hand on my arm as I continued to shake.  I could hear and feel everything during my seizures.  As I seized I cried out to the Lord in my Head, "Why!!  Please God just stop this!"  This went on for seven days random things set me off.  I laid in bed listening to my husband try to pull me out of the seizures with encouragement and pleading.  I was so out of it and the only answers from the Lord I was getting was from one song that was continuously stuck in my head during the seizures.  Only one verse was stuck in my head about thanking God and praising Him.  I can't remember the exact words or who sang the song right now but I know it was about thanking Him.  At the time I didn't see the meaning.

On the seventh day of this ordeal the seizures finally stopped and I was released with a questionable diagnose one that the doctors couldn't agree on.  But it was not epilepsy, thank you Jesus!  The moment my kids entered the room to the hotel we stayed at that night I knew what the song meant.  The Lord had spared my life and brought me back to my husband and children.  I praised Him as my husband and I drove home.

One hour away from our house we hit the mountains at that moment my head felt like it was going to explode and I started having a seizure.  After the seizure I looked at my husband and knew this was the answer.  The elevation changes that caused similar symptoms five years ago in New Mexico were to blame.  We had moved four years earlier because of similar symptoms and learned that elevation was to blame but I had completely forgotten.  When released from the hospital the doctors didn't really understand what was happening and I fought with the questions of what did happen and why.  I finally got to a point where I was ok with not finding all those answers out but God showed us the moment we hit a higher elevation.

Even though my head was going nuts I was in awe with how God just showed me what the trigger for the seizures was.  He is the Great Physician!  We spent a month in our house at over 4000 ft until we finally made our way down and finally moved to Phoenix.  Which has been a total miracle and I can now think clearer and continue on this process.  During the hospital stay Andrew and I discussed the possible complications this may have put on our adoption.  We got to a point where we just gave our daughter up to the Lord not knowing what life was going to be like afterwards.  Needless to say God showed us what was wrong and how to fix it.  I now have an altitude drug I take when changing altitude higher then 2000 ft.  And I have had no other seizures since that drive home.  Jesus has healed me and provided the answers we needed.  And He also showed us why we have not been to India yet.

God you are incredible!  

As we now wait for our day to meet sweet Hadassah Bharathi Moore; we have a new spring in our step.  We know God has it all in His hands and we know His timing is perfect no matter the trials.

Silence

Well after a very trying time I am updating our Haddie blog.  In September I spent 7 days in the hospital with seizures.  After a couple months recovering we have since moved and now in the Phoenix area.  So that means changing a bunch of adoption paperwork is being done and lots of life changes.  But God is faithful and we have learned so much throughout the last few months about God's provision.
As far as our adoption we have only heard silence.  But I know God allowed that for a very important reason.  I now understand why; if the health stuff would have happened in India it could have been much worse.  So now that I am on the mend I am praying He will start opening doors.  Which He is doing as we speak.
Our adoption Rep is in Hyderbad right now trying to figure out what is going on.  His hopes with this visit are to push to get us a court date and give us the opportunity to go get Haddie.  So please be in prayer as we wait to hear from our rep.  Also pray for her heart and ours as we get closer to seeing our little girl.

How He works...

It has been over four months since we were promised a court date to finalize the adoption.  Throughout this four months we have not heard anything directly from the Indian government or the orphanage themeselves.  Good news though our agency in the states sent a rep yesterday to the Ripa to see what was going on.  He was greeted with suprise and shock.  They had completely forgotten about our case!  Both the lawyer and the Ripa had forgotten about the adoption.  CRAZY...

Now throughout this whirlwind of four months I have been incredably sick, in limbo on where and when we are moving, started homeschooling our awesome children again, and fighting to stay hopeful for Haddie.  And the Ripa simply forgot...  But God knows what He is doing.  I have struggled to keep this FACT in my mindset throughout the past few months.  The struggles that I have been wrestling with are: will this ever happen, maybe I am not ready for her and God doesn't want this, maybe it is a big conspiracy, and do I even deserve to mother another child.

As the selfish thoughts fill my head, God brings me back to what about Haddie.  Imagine what she might be feeling.  She has met a couple women who have taken pictures of her at the orphanage but can't understand why.  They seem interested but nothing has happened yet.  Am I going to have a mommy and daddy come to get me?  Will I get to go like my friends have got to go?  My heart breaks to think of the confusion she may be dealing with right now.  But every moment I think of her I give her right back to The Lord and pray that He fill that worry and anticipation, with peace for both her and us her mommy and daddy.

Although we do not know the time and date we will get to hold our daughter, we do know we can trust and believe God knows best and His timing is always perfect.

"Wait on The Lord: be of good courage, and He shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on The Lord" (Psalm 27:14).

Sneek Peek

Still no court date... Actually the state where Hyderabad is, has experienced a split so it has delayed a lot of court proceedings.  So we are still waiting.  We have though recieved a few pictures of Haddie from wonderful women whom have picked up their daughters from the same orphanage in the last couple months.  So here is a sneek peek of our daughter Hadassah Bharathi Moore!!!  Look to your left....

We are still trying to raise money for our upcoming trip so if you know anyone who would like to donate to a wonderful cause please send them a link to this blog or a link to our youcare page which is on the right side of this page.

As for how we are doing with all of these changes in life.  God is holding us together.  I am feeling much better after getting off a biologic medication, it was slowly poisioning my body, the kids are doing awesome I am homeschooling them and we still don't know where we are moving in a month but really I am not worried about it.  We would just like to recieve that much anticipated call that we are ready to go get Haddie.  The rest will fall into place as the time comes.

What God has shown us in the last month... That He has a reason for everything (if we would have gone to India recently I would have been very sick there); that He can bring us through a lot of change in a short time; that He is ever present in our lives even when we can't understand why things happen the way they do.

Please continue to pray for Haddie's homecoming and the hearts of our children to adjust well when she gets here.  Thank you for reading our blog and please continue to share it.

Radio Silence

So it has been awhile since our last entry.  Within this time period I have been pretty sick.  Most importantly though we have not heard from the Ripa about a court date.  Even though they stated they would send us a date in early June we have not heard anything.  Which makes us sad and frustrated but at the same time reminds us that God knows what He is doing.  With my health I honestly think it would have been very difficult.

Things are getting better though I am improving slowly and getting answers from doctors so that I can continue improving.  We have had the honor of receiving pictures from a wonderful acquaintance who is picking her little girl in India as I write.  We also got some pictures of her in a group setting which shows her smiling.  Such a lovely little look at our beautiful daughter.  In the picture she is one of the only children standing while the rest are sitting almost like she was saying "its me mom".

Oh how we long to hold her and bring her home.  In the mean time we are still waiting to hear where we are moving and praying that we can bring her home before that move so we won't have to redo a ton of paper work and changes to the adoption process.

Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares The Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future".

As we wait for you Haddie we hold on to the promise our Lord gives us.  We trust He is preparing your heart and ours.   Although we are not physically together God is building and readying our hearts for each other.   We love you little one...

Prayers...
Please be praying for the parents who are traveling to India right now that their travel is safe and productive.

Pray for Haddie's health and emotional being.

Pray for our court date and the many changes we have going on as we anticipate Haddie's homecoming.

Eventful Week

This has been quiet an eventful week.  School has ended for the kids, we had a bout of the stomache flu, we sent in our request for our i800 extention, and we recieved and updated photo  and measurments of Haddie.  This was a huge suprise because it normally takes forever to get anything from our Ripa or orphanage!  She is so beautiful and looks so tiny.  She is 26 pounds and 3 ft 1 inch tall.
I just want to get her home and help her gain some weight with healthy foods.  This week we also found out that the court will be emailing us with a court date in the next two weeks, so we are waiting on pins and needles for that day.  We are also still waiting to find out were we are moving.

God is so good though... Even with the anticipation of our upcoming move and adding Haddie to our family I have been holding it together.  I got to a point where I just had to give it all over to The Lord because honestly it can make a person crazy.  Moving so much we have learned that our roots are in our family and our Lord, not in our home.   Home is our family....  And it will not be complete until Haddie gets home to take her spot in it.


In the Bible it states - John 16:12-15

“I still have many things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now. When the Spirit of truth comes, he will guide you into all the truth, for he will not speak on his own authority, but whatever he hears he will speak, and he will declare to you the things that are to come. He will glorify me, for he will take what is mine and declare it to you. All that the Father has is mine; therefore I said that he will take what is mine and declare it to you".

This verse gives me so much comfort to know that even with all the unknowns, God gives us His Spirit to guide us and show us His ways and truth.  It is the only way to live life in a world that is becoming more lost everyday.  

New Hope and friends!

When things are at a standstill in this adoption I tend to get a little low.  Recently I remembered a website my friend told me about or actually it is a group of families who have adopted from India online.  I joined the group and through that met a women who's daughter is in the same orphanage as ours.  She introduced me to a Facebook page of 8 other women who have a child in Hyderabad!

So I, with Andrew's advice, I broke my one rule of no Facebook accounts and signed up under a assumed name to join the group of wonderful women going through the process of adopting from India.  Come to find out that most of these women are adopting from the same orphanage!  God is so good!!!  This has been such a wonderful and encouraging find.

Also we just found out yesterday that our paper reached the court and that our agency will be contacting them to make sure they arrived and are being processed.  Hopefully we can get a court date soon!

Please pray for Haddie as God prepares her emotionally for us.  Pray that we can get into the courts soon.  And please pray for patience.